Spoon River Anthology · Edgar Lee Masters

Part 4: Nancy Knapp to Paul McNeely

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Part 4: Nancy Knapp to Paul McNeely

Nancy Knapp

Well, don’t you see this was the way of it:

We bought the farm with what he inherited,

And his brothers and sisters accused him of poisoning

His father’s mind against the rest of them.

And we never had any peace with our treasure.

The murrain took the cattle, and the crops failed.

And lightning struck the granary.

So we mortgaged the farm to keep going.

And he grew silent and was worried all the time.

Then some of the neighbors refused to speak to us,

And took sides with his brothers and sisters.

And I had no place to turn, as one may say to himself,

At an earlier time in life;

“No matter, So and so is my friend, or I can shake this off

With a little trip to Decatur.”

Then the dreadfulest smells infested the rooms.

So I set fire to the beds and the old witch-house

Went up in a roar of flame,

As I danced in the yard with waving arms,

While he wept like a freezing steer.

Barry Holden

The very fall my sister Nancy Knapp

Set fire to the house

They were trying Dr. Duval

For the murder of Zora Clemens,

And I sat in the court two weeks

Listening to every witness.

It was clear he had got her in a family way;

And to let the child be born

Would not do.

Well, how about me with eight children,

And one coming, and the farm

Mortgaged to Thomas Rhodes?

And when I got home that night,

(After listening to the story of the buggy ride,

And the finding of Zora in the ditch,)

The first thing I saw, right there by the steps,

Where the boys had hacked for angle worms,

Was the hatchet!

And just as I entered there was my wife,

Standing before me, big with child.

She started the talk of the mortgaged farm,

And I killed her.

State’s Attorney Fallas

I, the scourge-wielder, balance-wrecker,

Smiter with whips and swords;

I, hater of the breakers of the law;

I, legalist, inexorable and bitter,

Driving the jury to hang the madman, Barry Holden,

Was made as one dead by light too bright for eyes,

And woke to face a Truth with bloody brow:

Steel forceps fumbled by a doctor’s hand

Against my boy’s head as he entered life

Made him an idiot. I turned to books of science

To care for him.

That’s how the world of those whose minds are sick

Became my work in life, and all my world.

Poor ruined boy! You were, at last, the potter

And I and all my deeds of charity

The vessels of your hand.

Wendell P. Bloyd

They first charged me with disorderly conduct,

There being no statute on blasphemy.

Later they locked me up as insane

Where I was beaten to death by a Catholic guard.

My offense was this:

I said God lied to Adam, and destined him

To lead the life of a fool,

Ignorant that there is evil in the world as well as good.

And when Adam outwitted God by eating the apple

And saw through the lie,

God drove him out of Eden to keep him from taking

The fruit of immortal life.

For Christ’s sake, you sensible people,

Here’s what God Himself says about it in the book of Genesis:

“And the Lord God said, behold the man

Is become as one of us” (a little envy, you see),

“To know good and evil” (The all-is-good lie exposed):

“And now lest he put forth his hand and take

Also of the tree of life and eat, and live forever:

Therefore the Lord God sent Him forth from the garden of Eden.” (The

reason I believe God crucified His Own Son

To get out of the wretched tangle is, because it sounds just like Him.

)

Francis Turner

I could not run or play

In boyhood.

In manhood I could only sip the cup,

Not drink--For scarlet-fever left my heart diseased.

Yet I lie here

Soothed by a secret none but Mary knows:

There is a garden of acacia,

Catalpa trees, and arbors sweet with vines--

There on that afternoon in June

By Mary’s side--

Kissing her with my soul upon my lips

It suddenly took flight.

Franklin Jones

If I could have lived another year

I could have finished my flying machine,

And become rich and famous.

Hence it is fitting the workman

Who tried to chisel a dove for me

Made it look more like a chicken.

For what is it all but being hatched,

And running about the yard,

To the day of the block?

Save that a man has an angel’s brain,

And sees the ax from the first!

John M. Church

I was attorney for the “Q”

And the Indemnity Company which insured

The owners of the mine.

I pulled the wires with judge and jury,

And the upper courts, to beat the claims

Of the crippled, the widow and orphan,

And made a fortune thereat.

The bar association sang my praises

In a high-flown resolution.

And the floral tributes were many--

But the rats devoured my heart

And a snake made a nest in my skull

Russian Sonia

I, born in Weimar

Of a mother who was French

And German father, a most learned professor,

Orphaned at fourteen years,

Became a dancer, known as Russian Sonia,

All up and down the boulevards of Paris,

Mistress betimes of sundry dukes and counts,

And later of poor artists and of poets.

At forty years, passée, I sought New York

And met old Patrick Hummer on the boat,

Red-faced and hale, though turned his sixtieth year,

Returning after having sold a ship-load

Of cattle in the German city, Hamburg.

He brought me to Spoon River and we lived here

For twenty years--they thought that we were married

This oak tree near me is the favorite haunt

Of blue jays chattering, chattering all the day.

And why not? for my very dust is laughing

For thinking of the humorous thing called life.

Isa Nutter

Doc Meyers said I had satyriasis,

And Doc Hill called it leucæmia--

But I know what brought me here:

I was sixty-four but strong as a man

Of thirty-five or forty.

And it wasn’t writing a letter a day,

And it wasn’t late hours seven nights a week,

And it wasn’t the strain of thinking of Minnie,

And it wasn’t fear or a jealous dread,

Or the endless task of trying to fathom

Her wonderful mind, or sympathy

For the wretched life she led

With her first and second husband--

It was none of these that laid me low--

But the clamor of daughters and threats of sons,

And the sneers and curses of all my kin

Right up to the day I sneaked to Peoria

And married Minnie in spite of them--

And why do you wonder my will was made

For the best and purest of women?

Barney Hainsfeather

If the excursion train to Peoria

Had just been wrecked, I might have escaped with my life--

Certainly I should have escaped this place.

But as it was burned as well, they mistook me

For John Allen who was sent to the Hebrew Cemetery

At Chicago,

And John for me, so I lie here.

It was bad enough to run a clothing store in this town,

But to be buried here--ach!

Petit, the Poet

Seeds in a dry pod, tick, tick, tick,

Tick, tick, tick, like mites in a quarrel--

Faint iambics that the full breeze wakens--

But the pine tree makes a symphony thereof.

Triolets, villanelles, rondels, rondeaus,

Ballades by the score with the same old thought:

The snows and the roses of yesterday are vanished;

And what is love but a rose that fades?

Life all around me here in the village:

Tragedy, comedy, valor and truth,

Courage, constancy, heroism, failure--

All in the loom, and oh what patterns!

Woodlands, meadows, streams and rivers--

Blind to all of it all my life long.

Triolets, villanelles, rondels, rondeaus,

Seeds in a dry pod, tick, tick, tick, Tick, tick, tick, what little

iambics,

While Homer and Whitman roared in the pines?

Pauline Barrett

Almost the shell of a woman after the surgeon’s knife

And almost a year to creep back into strength,

Till the dawn of our wedding decennial

Found me my seeming self again.

We walked the forest together,

By a path of soundless moss and turf.

But I could not look in your eyes,

And you could not look in my eyes,

For such sorrow was ours--the beginning of gray in your hair.

And I but a shell of myself.

And what did we talk of?--sky and water,

Anything, ’most, to hide our thoughts.

And then your gift of wild roses,

Set on the table to grace our dinner.

Poor heart, how bravely you struggled

To imagine and live a remembered rapture!

Then my spirit drooped as the night came on,

And you left me alone in my room for a while,

As you did when I was a bride, poor heart.

And I looked in the mirror and something said:

“One should be all dead when one is half-dead--”

Nor ever mock life, nor ever cheat love.”

And I did it looking there in the mirror--

Dear, have you ever understood?

Mrs. Charles Bliss

Reverend Wiley advised me not to divorce him

For the sake of the children,

And Judge Somers advised him the same.

So we stuck to the end of the path.

But two of the children thought he was right,

And two of the children thought I was right.

And the two who sided with him blamed me,

And the two who sided with me blamed him,

And they grieved for the one they sided with.

And all were torn with the guilt of judging,

And tortured in soul because they could not admire

Equally him and me.

Now every gardener knows that plants grown in cellars

Or under stones are twisted and yellow and weak.

And no mother would let her baby suck

Diseased milk from her breast.

Yet preachers and judges advise the raising of souls

Where there is no sunlight, but only twilight,

No warmth, but only dampness and cold--

Preachers and judges!

Mrs. George Reece

To this generation I would say:

Memorize some bit of verse of truth or beauty.

It may serve a turn in your life.

My husband had nothing to do

With the fall of the bank--he was only cashier.

The wreck was due to the president, Thomas Rhodes,

And his vain, unscrupulous son.

Yet my husband was sent to prison,

And I was left with the children,

To feed and clothe and school them.

And I did it, and sent them forth

Into the world all clean and strong,

And all through the wisdom of Pope, the poet:

“Act well your part, there all the honor lies.”

Rev. Lemuel Wiley

I preached four thousand sermons,

I conducted forty revivals,

And baptized many converts.

Yet no deed of mine

Shines brighter in the memory of the world,

And none is treasured more by me:

Look how I saved the Blisses from divorce,

And kept the children free from that disgrace,

To grow up into moral men and women,

Happy themselves, a credit to the village.

Thomas Ross, Jr.

This I saw with my own eyes: A cliff--swallow

Made her nest in a hole of the high clay-bank

There near Miller’s Ford.

But no sooner were the young hatched

Than a snake crawled up to the nest

To devour the brood.

Then the mother swallow with swift flutterings

And shrill cries

Fought at the snake,

Blinding him with the beat of her wings,

Until he, wriggling and rearing his head,

Fell backward down the bank

Into Spoon River and was drowned.

Scarcely an hour passed

Until a shrike

Impaled the mother swallow on a thorn.

As for myself I overcame my lower nature

Only to be destroyed by my brother’s ambition.

Rev. Abner Peet

I had no objection at all

To selling my household effects at auction

On the village square.

It gave my beloved flock the chance

To get something which had belonged to me

For a memorial.

But that trunk which was struck off

To Burchard, the grog-keeper!

Did you know it contained the manuscripts

Of a lifetime of sermons?

And he burned them as waste paper.

Jefferson Howard

My valiant fight! For I call it valiant,

With my father’s beliefs from old Virginia:

Hating slavery, but no less war.

I, full of spirit, audacity, courage

Thrown into life here in Spoon River,

With its dominant forces drawn from

New England, Republicans, Calvinists, merchants, bankers,

Hating me, yet fearing my arm.

With wife and children heavy to carry--

Yet fruits of my very zest of life.

Stealing odd pleasures that cost me prestige,

And reaping evils I had not sown;

Foe of the church with its charnel dankness,

Friend of the human touch of the tavern;

Tangled with fates all alien to me,

Deserted by hands I called my own.

Then just as I felt my giant strength

Short of breath, behold my children

Had wound their lives in stranger gardens--

And I stood alone, as I started alone

My valiant life! I died on my feet,

Facing the silence--facing the prospect

That no one would know of the fight I made.

Judge Selah Lively

Suppose you stood just five feet two,

And had worked your way as a grocery clerk,

Studying law by candle light

Until you became an attorney at law?

And then suppose through your diligence,

And regular church attendance,

You became attorney for Thomas Rhodes,

Collecting notes and mortgages,

And representing all the widows

In the Probate Court? And through it all

They jeered at your size, and laughed at your clothes

And your polished boots? And then suppose

You became the County Judge?

And Jefferson Howard and Kinsey Keene,

And Harmon Whitney, and all the giants

Who had sneered at you, were forced to stand

Before the bar and say “Your Honor”--

Well, don’t you think it was natural

That I made it hard for them?

Albert Schirding

Jonas Keene thought his lot a hard one

Because his children were all failures.

But I know of a fate more trying than that:

It is to be a failure while your children are successes.

For I raised a brood of eagles

Who flew away at last, leaving me

A crow on the abandoned bough.

Then, with the ambition to prefix

Honorable to my name,

And thus to win my children’s admiration,

I ran for County Superintendent of Schools,

Spending my accumulations to win--and lost.

That fall my daughter received first prize in Paris

For her picture, entitled, “The Old Mill”--

(It was of the water mill before Henry Wilkin put in steam.)

The feeling that I was not worthy of her finished me.

Jonas Keene

Why did Albert Schirding kill himself

Trying to be County Superintendent of Schools,

Blest as he was with the means of life

And wonderful children, bringing him honor

Ere he was sixty?

If even one of my boys could have run a news-stand,

Or one of my girls could have married a decent man,

I should not have walked in the rain

And jumped into bed with clothes all wet,

Refusing medical aid.

Eugenia Todd

Have any of you, passers-by,

Had an old tooth that was an unceasing discomfort?

Or a pain in the side that never quite left you?

Or a malignant growth that grew with time?

So that even in profoundest slumber

There was shadowy consciousness or the phantom of thought

Of the tooth, the side, the growth?

Even so thwarted love, or defeated ambition,

Or a blunder in life which mixed your life

Hopelessly to the end,

Will like a tooth, or a pain in the side,

Float through your dreams in the final sleep

Till perfect freedom from the earth-sphere

Comes to you as one who wakes

Healed and glad in the morning!

Yee Bow

They got me into the Sunday-school

In Spoon River

And tried to get me to drop Confucius for Jesus.

I could have been no worse off

If I had tried to get them to drop Jesus for Confucius.

For, without any warning, as if it were a prank,

And sneaking up behind me, Harry Wiley,

The minister’s son, caved my ribs into my lungs,

With a blow of his fist.

Now I shall never sleep with my ancestors in Pekin,

And no children shall worship at my grave.

Washington McNeely

Rich, honored by my fellow citizens,

The father of many children, born of a noble mother,

All raised there

In the great mansion--house, at the edge of town.

Note the cedar tree on the lawn!

I sent all the boys to Ann Arbor, all of the girls to Rockford,

The while my life went on, getting more riches and honors--

Resting under my cedar tree at evening.

The years went on.

I sent the girls to Europe;

I dowered them when married.

I gave the boys money to start in business.

They were strong children, promising as apples

Before the bitten places show.

But John fled the country in disgrace.

Jenny died in child-birth--

I sat under my cedar tree.

Harry killed himself after a debauch,

Susan was divorced--

I sat under my cedar tree.

Paul was invalided from over study,

Mary became a recluse at home for love of a man--

I sat under my cedar tree.

All were gone, or broken-winged or devoured by life--

I sat under my cedar tree.

My mate, the mother of them, was taken--

I sat under my cedar tree,

Till ninety years were tolled.

O maternal Earth, which rocks the fallen leaf to sleep.

Paul McNeely

Dear Jane! dear winsome Jane!

How you stole in the room (where I lay so ill)

In your nurse’s cap and linen cuffs,

And took my hand and said with a smile:

“You are not so ill--you’ll soon be well.”

And how the liquid thought of your eyes

Sank in my eyes like dew that slips

Into the heart of a flower.

Dear Jane! the whole McNeely fortune

Could not have bought your care of me,

By day and night, and night and day;

Nor paid for your smile, nor the warmth of your soul,

In your little hands laid on my brow.

Jane, till the flame of life went out

In the dark above the disk of night

I longed and hoped to be well again

To pillow my head on your little breasts,

And hold you fast in a clasp of love--

Did my father provide for you when he died,

Jane, dear Jane?

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